Post by LORENZO DELAROSA on Mar 15, 2020 6:34:04 GMT -5
Enzo didn’t know what kind of response he had been expecting but the one Sperling gave felt the most logical. He didn’t have to hide anymore, he’d said, and this might have occurred to Enzo if he’d taken a moment to consider that not everyone lived out loud. Not everyone could or wanted to. Though it was an idea he could understand rationally, he couldn’t wrap his head around the idea of being afraid to be true to oneself. He’d always lived unapologetically – his life, his rules, regardless of what anyone else thought. It didn’t always go smoothly, but Enzo figured it was far better than the alternative. Wasn’t it exhausting to live a lie, pretending to be someone you’re not? Didn’t it just cause more problems later down the line? He looked across the table to the man sat opposite him, a man who had been beaten badly enough for it to become headline news, and decided that yes, it did. He listened as Sperling explained how the attack had been meant as a warning to scare him back onto the straight and narrow – emphasis on straight, he supposed. How it wasn’t the first threat he’d received and that he’d found himself bound by rules he’d been forced to follow whether he liked it or not. How he’d tried to keep his private life far from his public persona, but that he couldn’t anymore. It was no longer an option, not when all the sordid details had been printed for the masses to lap up like Sperling’s life was some soap opera. Entertainment. How he would have preferred to do things in his own time and on his own terms, but he was glad that now he was free. Free to be himself after a decade of hiding. Enzo stared at him, his perpetual frown furrowing his brow, and tried to work out if Sperling was having him on. Surely no one was that gracious, that generous. It seemed like another lie he was telling himself to soften the blow. But given the magnitude of the fall-out, Enzo didn’t suppose he could fault Sperling for that. ”How noble,” he replied after a moment, and couldn’t decide whether he sounded more sceptical or impressed. He didn’t understand how Sperling wasn’t furious. He got mad when everyday people poked their nose in where it didn’t belong. He’d be apoplectic were it the national media. ”You know it’s no one’s business, right?” he asked, eyes narrowing slightly as he stared over at Sperling. ”You know you don’t owe anyone an explanation, especially not the parasites in the media.” They would spin the story however they wanted, truth be damned, far more concerned about sales than the impact they have on Sperling’s life and career. ”I get the whole ‘out and proud’ thing is important to some people but, really, it shouldn’t be news that you’re into dudes. Who gives a fuck who you fuck?” Sadly, Enzo knew the answer to that question was a lot of people, which was both perplexing and horrifying. As far as he was concerned, anyone who spent time thinking about someone else’s sex life, especially someone they didn’t know, was a nutjob. Enzo lifted his mug and took a long sip of his tea, a little more of the tension easing from his shoulders as it warmed him from the inside out. ”Your problem is you’re too nice. Always have been,” he added as he returned the mug to the table. ”You need to learn to tell people to fuck off when they cross a line and ask shit they don’t need to know. Some folks feel entitled to know everything about everything and it’s bullshit. But you’re a big boy now. You don’t have to answer to anyone but yourself.” |
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